I Destroy Myself

I scream, I cry
I tear, I fight
I destroy myself from within

I cannot stop
I have no control
So I destroy myself from within

I attribute it all
To external factors
Yet I destroy myself from within

Everything breaks
Everything falls apart
I destroy myself from within

The pain in my chest
A burning, gaping pit
As I destroy myself from within

I tell myself
The only cure lies with another
And I destroy myself from within

Who the hell am I kidding?

    -- Bem Ajani Jones-Bey   8.9.99